Seems it takes years to never to internalize the
wisdom of self-awareness. At some point, I realized that while anxiety is
existential I do have choices about how I use my anxious energy, probably my greatest survival tool. It definitely had me
by the balls, or whatever the female version of that is.
I know now that my anger/anxiety, rather than being caused by Andrew’s illness was actually being fueled by my habit of making negative predictions about the future. I expected the worst and then acted like it was already a reality.
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