The italics below are still quoting from the interview with Karen Green widow of author David Wallace who committed suicide by hanging.
Problematic for me is that there is a
post-traumatic stress that comes from finding someone you love like that, as I
did. It's a real thing. A real change to your brain, on a cellular level,
apparently.
This I
certainly share. My body has been and still is in a state of responding to and
recovering from Andrew's death. This for me has been the biological equivalent of losing a limb, having a major
organ replacement surgery or a near death auto accident.
At times, but less now
than right after Andrew died, my body alternates between humming with a pulsing energy that I
had never consciously experienced before and numbness.
I only rarely even get sleepy these days. I am in what feels like a constant ongoing state of shock.
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