I had another short
dream that I was watching Andrew jump off the train trestle, landing with full
impact, feet first, and crumpling. His great height compacted by the impact of
his fall but otherwise he was not disfigured.
In the dream, I wanted
to turn away but I did not. I recalled when I went to my first Survivors of Suicide
meeting, our leader, Jan, described finding her husband who had hung himself in
their home. She said that when she closed her eyes she always saw him hanging
in front of her, forcing her to open her eyes.
After her husband had been dead for a while, she decided to
continue looking at his image until she could own every detail of it and then
it seemed to lose its terror for her. I felt this way in my dream today.
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